Life is really precious. This sentence is one that I've heard many times but only thought about today. I was watching a video of someone doing extreme sports and halfway through, something went wrong and the person almost lost his life. His life was saved by the safety measures that were put in place. That triggered several thoughts in my mind. Personally, I would want to try out extreme activities like bungee jumping one day so it was not difficult to understand people's reasons for engaging in such activities. What really puzzled me was the fact that there are so many possiblities of us getting into an accident but one way or another, we are all still alive. In a day, we walk across many roads, commute from one place to another, consume products that can be harmful for our bodies but after all these, we are still living. What exactly is protecting us from being sent off from Earth? Is there really a higher power that decides our fate? 

lonely fear lights up the sky

I think I'm feeling the repercussions of not opening up to others and not being true to myself. It has always been fine suppressing my emotions, running away from my problems. However, I'm finally paying the price. I'm finally feeling all the pain that I have suppressed while saying that I am or I will be fine. I am finally opening up to others and somehow, I don't feel any better. I'm finding out things that I have never known before. I'm realising that others still have that same expectations of me, while I have been hiding the truth that I have changed to become someone worse. I'm finally realising that I have always kept myself in my own little bubble, not allowing others to fully understand me. I have become more unsure of myself but others still think that I am still capable of everything. I have changed but the world hasn't. I am just becoming a great disappointment.

can't help but wonder why, you're so far away

Please just stay alive

A phrase full of hope but is hope always good? Hope allows us to be able to imagine the better things that nay happen to us but doesn't this uncertainty bring about the risk of greater disappointment? Are these risks really worth taking? Does 'if' really exist? 

http://thoughtcatalog.com/hannah-sofia-ghani/2014/05/you-are-allowed-to-love-yourself/